There is something about being in the presence of the Almighty God. There is nothing that can compare to being in the midst of the King there is safety there, there is love, a love unlike any other. It is such a humbling feeling when the Most High God comes amongst you to show you love, to dwell within you. Thank you Father for your presence.
What do you do when you have given God the best you can give and you feel as though you have let him down? How do you move past the fears of totally walking in faith? How do you truly walk by believing the unseen rather than going by what is known? Can one really be free in their walk with God? How can I truly understand? What can I do? God, show me the next steps, I need to press through. I need to find you, a deeper level of you, deeper than I have ever been able to go before. I need to know beyond the pages of the written words of the Most High God. I need to dwell within the inner most parts of your Spirit. I desire to be transparent to you.
I’d waited for what felt like an eternity for this, could I really be where I am now? Has God truly answered this prayer? Don’t pinch me cause I may awake and realize that it is all a dream. For years the fire of God's love has burned so bright, at times it has felt so unattainable, but could it really be right before me? They say all good things come to those that wait, could this be my good thing?
At times you may feel as though life is going so hard against you that you don't know how your going to move forward but I am hear to tell you that there is NOTHING to hard for God!!! Trust and believe He hears every petition spoken before Him and He sees and holds every tear you shed. He is a mighty and faithful God and He has your absolute best interest at heart trust Him with all your broken pieces His angels are working endlessly to gather them up and put them back together for you!! Gods love and blessings upon you always ❤️❤️❤️❤️
People may discredited you, knock you down and make you feel as though you and
your destiny can not be accomplished, but the devil is a liar because with GOD
ALL things are possible!! Don't you give up or give in, keep pressing forward--
-Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."
- Matthew 19:26
I have often sat back and thought about some of the painful things that I have endured through my life and so many questions come to my mind but my biggest question has been WHY????? As I grow in my relationship with God I understand that my stories can help someone, which I pray that they do. Being a mother of four daughters just that revelation alone makes it all worth it to me I know what challenges can arise as they grow from children into women not that I can prevent every situation that may arise but I can definitely understand, lend advice and share my experiences to help alleviate some of the pain and confusion that I felt.
I have put up with alot more than I needed to in my life out of fear of rejection or being alone. I used to be so worried about what other people thought about me, both in such an UNhealthy way. When I was in an abusive relationship I didn't want to leave the abuser because I was afraid of being alone. When I'd get cheated on, lied to and disrespected in relationships I'd cry and argue but I never left maybe threatened to but never left as I should of because yet again I didn't want to be alone. I was afraid that if I would have walked away or said the things I needed to truly end it they really would've been gone and I didn't want to be rejected, I didn't want to be alone, and then there was that lie I'd say to myself all the time " he loves me, he really does" smh. Isn't it interesting how much we will put up with just to "have someone" in our lives out of fear of being rejected or being alone? We are worth so much more than being with someone that does not have the ability nor want or can't be who we need them to be. You are a child of the most high GOD and he created you to be loved not abused, cheated on, lied to or disrespected. You are NEVER alone GOD loves you UNCONDITIONALLY and when you
realize whose you are and how VALUABLE you are you won't allow ANYONE to say or treat you otherwise EVER again.
As I have matured I can't say grown up because we can grow up in the physical sense yet not be mature in a mental capacity. I have learned that I'd much rather be alone with my sanity and the love of the good LORD and my children than crying, stressed and questioning myself within a toxic and UNhealthy relationship to satisfy my flesh just to have someone in my life. I'd rather wait for someone of QUALITY sent from the great and gracious Lord from above than to settle for less than what I deserve EVER again!!
The best thing that I could ever say to anyone especially another woman is that if deep within yourself something does not feel right please trust that your spirit is sensing something for a reason. Be aware because if 1+1 is not equaling 2 eventually all those signs that you failed to notice or just brushed off will be confirmed at some point or another and by then it may be to late. Sometimes the emotional and mental pain of betrayal can be just as deadly and compromising as the physical.